This year has a theme thus far: What will be, will be. Trust what is and what will be. Be Patient + everything will all work itself out.
I see that a lot of good karma is coming back to me. I'm seeing the benefits of patience as I'm overcoming obstacles and of course, I'm always welcoming new challenges into my life.
|Boise Winter 2012/2013|
I often skip over the negative when sharing my life in blog and social media form, but in all reality it isn't always the case that life is solely sunshine, rainbows + excitement. This winter was especially tough for me as a naturally-cold vata, let alone as a year-round commuting cyclist. There were way too many rides in single-digit weather where no matter what kind of gloves I had protecting my delicate hands, I was sure to feel all stages of frozen digits. Cold. Tingly. Stinging. Pain. I often had ice crystals on my eyelashes, eyebrows + sometimes on the surrounding skin on my face.
|Adri sick in bed :(|
|Filling in the gaps in my very|
With my "bICE-cycling" situation it has made me appreciate when the weather is in the 30's. I don't mind rainy rides home, in fact I find them quite reviving. I'm so grateful that I have the freedom to up + pedal away the majority of the year. For those ultra-snowy + icy days, I happily hop on the bus + tip taxis generously for what they do. Thankful!
|Cheers to a lovely winter-time nurse,|
the ever-so hospitable Megan! I wouldn't
have survived without her words, acts of
kindess and love.
|Anton + his gift of smoothies!|
Thankful for his friendship, his
very own journey + his "bomb"
My housing situation showed the strength in my friendships and within myself to reach out to those friends. Often times, my "lioness" leo pride prevents me from asking for help and when offered help, prevents me from accepting it. I was graciously allowed to stay at two of my dearest lady friend's places. It was a huge relief to not only move forward with my new-found humility but to also say thank you and realize the beauty in the situation. I moved in with one of those gals and I couldn't be happier to have a special friend who is willing to open her home to me. I am so very thankful with all of my heart and for the rest of my life for such a welcoming woman and a warm place I now call home.
Money comes and goes, and when you surrender to the universe and trust that what you need - you will have and what you don't is nothing to be worried about. Hips are fixed, but strength can be built through compassion, empathy + accompanying your lovely wild woman grandmother to her appointments. All dogs go to heaven as they rest in a place that is meant for them in your heart. This also allowed me the chance to do something super special for my family. I tracked down the nearest collie-breeder (Wyoming!) + as a gift put down the deposit for a new future four-legged family member which will be picked up in less than a month on a rest-assured wild woman road trip with that lovely grandmother of mine, Sandra! Yeehaw!
|Love Love Love|
I realized that what has shaped me for years comes from the battle going on from within. I have adjusted who I am, how loud I am, what I say, how I dress, and how I look for so long to fit in with society and feel "accepted."
|My favorite: hearts!|
|Herbs were part of my physical healing.|
The first is my discovery of Ayurveda, an ancient art of natural healing to become healthy, happy and balanced. I wasn't looking for this. I was really clueless to the whole situation + how it came to be, which makes it even more special for me. I was sick with one of those nasty bugs I got over the winter. I couldn't nurse myself back to health like I usually do. I tend to kick illness in 3 days. I have steps and specific things I eat + drink to heal my sick body to wellness. After a few weeks I took the advice and took a cancelled appointment with a rather busy Acupuncturist in town. The funny thing is, I didn't even know she did acupuncture. I thought she was just an herbalist who was going to give me herbs and send me on my way. You can imagine my thoughts when I was asked to take my shirt off and lay face-down on the table...! HA! She walked in, took my pulse and without delay said, "You have a hot spleen, stomach + liver." I told her a bunch of problems I was having and she told me, "Oh, that's just part of being Vata. You're Vata with high Pitta." Again, what?! I was so confused. I find out that she's describing my doshas. There are three doshas, energies based on your body type and personality, used to treat you and your often dosha-specific symptoms. I'm still learning about all of this, it's just so fascinating! As I left, with the herbs to treat my hot organs (thank you! ... oh that wasn't a compliment!) I asked her if there were any dietary guidelines to the whole Ayurveda deal. She instructed me to check out the Ayurvedic Institute webpage. I did all of the researching I needed to do to discover the things I need and should avoid based on my dosha.
|Ghee = Gold!|
Just like Ayurveda keeps the body happy and in harmony, Yoga balances the mind and consciousness (with amazing toning + strength-building as the cherry on top). Together they compliment each other nicely, working to one happy, healthy mind, body + soul. After hearing about it for years and even going to a few sessions here and there I finally found my place in yoga. After doing a few in-home Sunday morning sessions with my "big sis" gal pal, I found the right teacher, the right studio, the right environment + I even enjoy the other members. It finally clicked with me. I ditch my bike and take the time to enjoy nature and really take in the day by walking to the studio anywhere from 2-5 times a week. I leave smiling almost every time! I feel completely rejuvenated, ready for the day, filled with so much love and joy.
As my body tells me that my Ayurvedic and Yogic practices are nothing but positive, I listen and I obey. I surrender to what I know is making me happy, not what society, nor media, nor others say is acceptable or not. My body isn't the super-restrictive size 2 that I once was. I cook with full healthy fats without fear. I satisfy my body. I traded in my super-straining, compulsive runs for regular yoga sessions, hikes, walks and of course my 5 or so hours of bike riding a week. I'm active and I have a healthy diet. My body and mind are doing better than ever. Why push it?
At the end of the day, I went to my second yoga session.
We were ending the night in meditation. It was the first time I truly felt my body as one.
My legs as one. My arms as one. My eyes as one. My body as one.
"Imagine yourself walking barefoot on a trail."
"Feel the texture." "Maybe it is sandy or rocky."
"You're on the path when you see a fire in front of you."
"In front of that fire is a person."
"This is a wise person."
I had two tears streaming down my face.
That person, in front of the fire, was myself.
Envisioning myself as the "wise one," is still a shock to me.
I knew this was the breakthrough of self-love + respect I'd been holding within myself.
I finally tapped into it. It was brought out through this meditation.
I gave myself the gift of light.
I will be able to guide myself wherever I need to go from here on out with this gift of light.
|All you need is love!|
I feel that I've been looking in all sorts of places for answers, feelings, guidance, love, happiness.
As I have had quite the journey, I've discovered it is within myself, where I started.
Life isn't about what I have, it's about what I've gained.